in all unfairness
S and i had stopped planning on meeting for a while now because everytime we try to,
and we plan it and when it's almost time,
every single time...
something goes wrong.
for example the last time..
i was going to pick her up from her house and half way a car came and hit my car so hard..
and i completely fucked my back.
and the boy who was with me took me back home immediately,
thinking that the injury might turn in to something big.
S and i still haven't met..
if you guys haven't figured that out as yet.
we've been planning on meeting for over 2 years now...
yet we're still together.
so this time...
we planned to meet.
didn't make a big deal out of it.
and guess what happens?
doctor saab was going to get a few of my test results from the hospital when two cars came and hit him.
he was in the passenger seat..
he's got some serious head injuries and is unconscious.
and the boy who was driving got seriously injured too,
but he's up.
he's hurt his back and leg but he'll be okay inshallah.
it more than sucks.
i'm not sure what is it that keeps us going..
giving us a reason to go on.
we've been together 4 and a half years and then some,
still haven't met.
but we know we cannot live without each other.
it's not like haven't broken up.
we broke up 3 times.
i got married in the middle of the madness too.
and somehow we worked it out.
we've reached here.
we've come so so so far than both of us ever imagined.
i'm not sure what to think of it.
what to make of it all.
is it that it's not our time yet.
or is it that we're just not meant to be.
but why wouldn't we be together?
we're so good together.
there is a connection.
there is that clicking.
it was there day 1,
and it's still there after all this time.
we still make each other laugh.
we still complete each others sentences.
we cry together.
we make each other happy.
we still bring that same smile to the others face as we did in the first 6 months.
she still makes my heart skip a beat.
she still makes my heart race.
i know how i feel.
and i'm sure of my feelings.
and i know that there is nothing else that i want.
i keep telling her that i will steal you away from God if that's what it takes.
she is the one.
she is my one.
in my vulerable time..
she could have gone.
she doesn't deserve all this.
why would she stay with me?
for someone that yeah she loves,
but has never met?
but she stayed.
and the times that i left..
i came back.
not for her.
there have been so many times,
and still are times,
when i need her more than she needs me.
and she's aware of that.
and she stays.
not for me.
she stays with me.
we haven't said our vows yet..
but we're living up to them.
we've lived up to them.
we don't do because we have to.
or we should.
we do because we want to.
after all this and so much more,
you expect us to believe we don't belong together?
or that we cannot be together?
people everywhere get married and have relationships with all kinds of wrong people.
why or how are we different?
we haven't even been given a shot at "us"
not even once.
it's always been about everyone else.
and everything else.
it's always about the third person.
it has never ever.
been about you and me.
all that there is about "us" are our thoughts.
our little and big plans.
at some insane level,
i guess i understand what all happened with me.
everyone that i ever knew.
i get that.
like i said,
at some insane..
i get that.
what i don't get is...
what is so unusual that we have asked or is what we want.
all we ask is for us to be together.
like any other normal one girl and one boy.
they meet each other.
like each other.
fall in love.
have a family.
that's all we want.
how many people do we all know who met,
fell in love and got married?
i'm sure everyone who is reading this knows atleast one situation of the sort,
all we want is that one little chance.
a chance to feel that feeling in the stomach.
that knowing smile.
that first date.
that first kiss.
so much happened,
continues to happen every single day,
and in the middle of all that,
there is a fairy-tale.
and you just wait and see.
it will finish with a happily ever after.
you know why?
because it didn't start with "once upon a time..."